Is There Integrity Behind Your Desire?
How I Found Power in My Own Archetype
This one is about my path to clean desire.
For most of my adult life, I blamed myself for not getting what I thought I should want.
Marriage.
Wife-hood.
The safe and secure life.
I wasn’t able to shapeshift into the kind of woman that looks right on paper and checks all the boxes because I ‘shoulded’ on myself to want to be her.
The truth was the desire wasn’t clean. It wasn’t rooted in my soul.
It was tethered to survival, born of not-enoughness, of wanting to be chosen so I could finally feel worthy. And as much as I tried to make that desire holy, it always backfired.
Desire without integrity fractures the spirit.
The desire that actually lit me up was about soul work.
Entrepreneurship. Being of service. Merging money with soul.
Waking up in the morning making my living through devotion. That desire stayed the most consistent, the most honest. I dream of 5-10K months not just for security, but because I want to experience the joy of being resourced in my gifts.
But oh, the detours…
There were married women, mentors, distractions, and friends who dazzled me. Their luxury…their romance…their ‘flavor’ of devotion that looked like everything I thought I wanted.
But I wasn’t aligning with my desire. I was unconsciously trying to mimic theirs (from self-betrayal). And you cannot devote to anything from self-betrayal.
I had to find courage in something older…something deeper that had an ancient imprint in my soul: archetypes.
Archetypes are immortal references in culture that we know from myth, film, music and story (like ‘king,’ ‘villain,’ ‘muse,’ ‘lover,’ ‘jester,’ etc.) They speak to us in dreams, entertainment, and daily life. If you understand what archetype you’re drawn to, it can clarify your own soul’s desire.
For example, if you love warriors you probably desire strength- you might wanna sign up at your local gym or a martial arts class. If you’re drawn to queens, you probably desire dignity..are you letting people pursue you instead of chasing them(?) If you desire muse you probably desire play- are you going fun places, dancing to inspiring music and immersing in creativity?
What about the archetypes that trigger you?
The Magician was the one I avoided most in the real world. Too slippery. Too mysterious. Too intense. And yet, my soul never stopped circling his fire. I didn’t know why…until I realized:
That was me.
That was the part of me I was terrified to claim- my own inner mage!
The one who believes in herself. The one who sells magic with intention. The one who says: It’s safe to have power. It’s safe to be an entrepreneur.
It’s safe to stand beside powerful men and be the king’s mage.
Yes, it’s my ‘mage’ season! :D
There are other women doing this work and it is a privilege to be doing it too. It is an adventure and a pleasure to admire a man’s king energy and walk with him through a season of transformation.
I am blown away by any man who chooses:
devotion over religion
self mastery over force
instinctual courage over intellect
authentic purpose over status-seeking
embodied truth over spiritual idealism
legacy over pleasure-seeking
erotic confidence over addiction.
If you are a single man, divorced man, or man desiring transformation I would be humbled to be your guide. You can apply HERE.
In Closing: Reflective Questions
If something feels ‘off,’ notice what you really want and ask yourself:
Is this desire mine?
Is it born of devotion? (Or desperation/ fear?)
Am I following someone else’s fantasy, or am I honoring my own sacred fire?
The archetypes you’re drawn to, obsessed with, seduced by- they are mirrors. Not just of who you want to be with, but of who you already are.
When I stopped looking for the magician in a man and started loving the mage in me, my whole life began to change.
xo,
Tara
King Path
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